A Prayer to God: Psalm 69:5-6

A prayer based versus from Psalm 69 versus 5 and 6. 

Original verses:

O God, you know my folly;

    the wrongs I have done are not hidden from you.

6 Let not those who hope in you be put to shame through me,

    O Lord God of hosts;

let not those who seek you be brought to dishonor through me,

    O God of Israel. (ESV)

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O God, you know all of my mistakes and everything I have done wrong to those around me.  I have sinned against you and chosen my own path of righteousness. My sins and failures have been kept in darkness for too long and I have lived thinking that maybe, just maybe this one lie would not be counted against me. That if I could just choose my own path this once that you would overlook it. I lived believing that I was my own god and that I could change my mistakes by doing good to others.

How foolish I was to think that the wrongs I have done are not hidden from you!  O God, you see everything and know everything.  How could I believe that the darkness in my heart would not be seen by your light? That I live life believing I had something to lose, and this loss would be the nakedness of my soul poured out and seen by those around me. How much I wanted to hide behind my lies and deceit Lord, I was only listening to what Satan was telling me. Oh how foolish I was to think that You could not see through my soul!

Let not those who hope in you be put to shame through me, O Lord God. Let those who see me see You! I pray that my walk in life is not lived in darkness. That I trust you and be humbled in my faults so that your glory can shine that much brighter through me. Help me to be the witness that you want me to be so that others who believe in You can see the strength that you have given me. Let me be able to uplift and encourage my brothers and sisters Lord and the faith that I have. Give me the wisdom to know the difference in the choices I make and live in obedience to your Word Lord.

Let not those who seek you be brought to dishonor through me, O God. Let me be the witness that you want me to be. Let me reach out with love and be filled with the Holy Spirit. Let me not judge those around me but show them the joy that only you can bring God.  Help me to listen to your voice and be a person of integrity that will allow your life to shine into those who seek the Truth.  Only with your guidance Lord, can I help others turn to you and know the life that waits in eternity.

Sprinting Towards the Goal

I stand,
Perplexed by your continuous calling of my name. 

Refusing to let go as I hide behind my anger and shame

I have grown tired of walking the path of my choosing

And it was only your voice during this time that was so soothing
I grew to resent the path that I had chosen over the years

Wishing that I could take back the time I had spent in tears
As I stand, it is your love that has finally captured my heart
Pulling me towards yourself and the joy that you brought

I walk,
Being pulled slowly toward you each day and night
Even with the worldly pleasures so close, I keep trying to see your light.
Walking takes every ounce of energy I have as I lose focus on my goal
And when I feel like giving up, it is you who covers my life-sized hole

My walk is not straight and I still stumble in my sin as I try to stay on your path

In my self-pity, you remind me that it was your Son that covered me from your wrath
I have learned to see you through the fog of my short life on this Earth
So I walk, not by my will, but through yours, as I hear you tell me how much I’m worth

I run,
The trials that you have helped me overcome have given me renewed joy
I see the chains of the past falling away with each link you destroy
The rust was there and all I had to do was entrust it all to you
As I was molded to be free and to see things from your worldview
You have changed me, loved me, disciplined me, and led me through the flame.
And I run to draw nearer to you, as I see that you have loved me all the same.
You are the one that has had the faith in me when it should be the other way around.
And seeing your Son on that cross, I praise you for letting grace abound

I sprint,
So that I will not be entangled by everything that I have left behind me.
It is from these things in my life that I have learned to flee
Your promises of a new birth and new life has given me the joy to carry on
You have become my everything and I know you will be there even when all is gone
I can barely fathom the depth of your love and mercy for me, which is infinite

I do not want to experience the emptiness again without you, even for a minute
I will never stop sprinting towards you, oh Lord

And the goal of eternal life that you have given me, my reward.